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The Girl

Anna Bettina Alonzo Esguerra.
120990. Patrician. HS Junior. Narcissist. Damsel in distress. Self-proclaimed weirdo. Believes she is a real princess because her Father in heaven is the King of all kings. Girl-next-door. Typical teen. Fun-loving yet cautious. Musician. Dreams big. Wants to go out and see the world. Loves taking pictures and documenting special moments. Hopelessly and passionately in love with music. Idolizes 14-year-old JoJo. Princess of the eye bags. Writer. Book worm. A fan of JRR Tolkien and CS Lewis. Blog dork. Friendster addict. Coffee bum. Camera chic. Lives in Tree Hill and Capeside. Modern-day Juliet. Spunky. Complex. Loves heart-warming talks with people. Scared of being badly wounded. Never been in love.. not that kind of girl. Has enough conviction for waiting `till the right moment. Has an entire history of running away. Dwells into a dark infinity when situation calls for it. Shy and aloof. Struggling. Has a feeling of restriction. Cannot fly but not content to crawl. Suspended with a broken past and a future that isn't so appealing. Seeking the truth. Has enough capacity for human kindness. Dislikes too much violence and excessive humidity. Expressive. Sweet [?]. Has a tendency to be very emotional. Biggest weakness: decision-making. Elusive dream: pure bliss. Vulnerable - it's easy to make me laugh, cry, etc. Grounded - family and friends are most important. Sheltered and guarded. Mommy and Daddy's little princess. Smiles like nothing's wrong, talks like everything's perfect, and pretends it's doesn't hurt.. even when it does. Less than complete. With trembling feet and a broken heart, still found a way to cross over - from darkness to light. Fired up for Christ. Like Clay in the hand of the Potter. Held and guided by the Hand that molds her.. GOD. :)
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Wednesday, July 20, 2005

smiling because of somebody

Due to insistent public demand, I'm giving you back..

28 THINGS I WANT IN A HUSBAND/BOYFRIEND Revised Edition *wink* :D

1. Kind **
2. Great sense of humor
3. The greatest supporter of my dreams.. My own rah rah boy! **
4. Passionate about his work/studies **
5. Sweet and malambing -- loves to touch and hold me all the time
6. Is a little boy at heart -- has child's innocence and innate trust in the world
7. Highly-tolerant; open-minded **
8. Is sweet to his mother
9. Well-read **
10. Loves to travel and see the world
11. Remembers things I say, even the ones I've already forgotten I've said
12. Someone who always looks after my welfare **
13. Has a great deal of respect for women **
14. A hopeless romantic
15. Loves to give me back rubs
16. Smells good!
17. Loves my family and friends **
18. Fiercely loyal and honest **
19. Someone who dresses well, knows what looks good on him
20. Doesn't smoke nor drink hard liquor **
21. Someone who openly considers me his bestfriend
22. Someone who surprises me with nice, little, meaningful presents
23. Outdoorsy and athletic
24. Has wonderful, expressive eyes
25. Has nice little crinkles at the corners of his face when he smiles
26. Courageously pursues his dreams **
27. Shares the conviction I have that the brits are the world's best lyricists *wink*
28. Thinks me the smartest, the funniest, and the most intoxicating girl in existence!

Talking to someone made me realize that it's not conceited nor arrogant to set up standards when choosing God's best. There's nothing wrong about wanting someone who seems perfect. This guy definitely made me feel better. His words: "Everyone is brilliant. Some people are just more diligent. Everyone has a chance to be the best. You just have to learn to take it.." I feel so glad to have him as my friend. :) I know a lot of people find his over confidence a bit annoying.. but you know what.. honestly.. I find it cute. It's not everyday that you meet a guy who DOES NOT fish for compliments ALL THE TIME and DOES NOT pretend he doesn't think of himself highly. Let's face it, most guys are egoistic and and narcissistic. I'm not referring to ALL MEN, per se. It's just that this guy is different.. when he talks, I listen. And I just don't know why. There are only five guys that I listen to when they give advice. And now, this person comes and changes me and gives me a whole new perspective about things. How I wish I could have his mindset. He reminds me of my brother. Just like my brother, he too, is so intellectually stimulating. Too bad.. basta. Too bad. Period. Okay I'll stop talking. *wink* :D

Anyway..

We watched Hamlet the other day. We actually watched the Ethan Hawke version. Grabe, ang astig niya. :) My brother said it's a character-study. And he was right. The characters are all three-dimensional and hindi mababaw. Astig si Shakespeare. Hahaha. :D

Chatting with Pakner by the way. Sharing time again. *wink wink* I'm actually telling him that I need a change of atmosphere and I might undergo certain changes this year regarding church. He's telling me the difference between MARK and PAO. Si PAO, madrama. Si MARK, tawa nang tawa. Bakit ganon? Lagi na lang si PAO yung nakakausap ko. Hahaha. How I wish maibalik na si MARK. I miss MARK. Haha. Pao, if you're reading this, I want you to know that I want MARK back. I want the vibrant and carefree MARK more than the PAO who is filled with kadramahan and sadness. Hahahaha. Ang drama. :P

"Love is weakest when there's more doubts than trust.. and strongest when you learn to trust despite the doubts.." - Pao-slash-Pakner :)

Gotta go.. I'm absent again, by the way. *sighs like there's no tomorrow*

Girl-Next-Door
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